Hi everyone so I am very disappointed to report that over the winter I have gained all but 10 pounds back. I know that its good that I was able to keep 10 pounds off but I cannot help feel so disappointed. I know the areas I did wrong too, basically I did the opposite of what helped me lose 30 pounds before fall last year. So now I am trying like hell to get back and change things around without messing up this time. When people say that weight loss is a journey they were not kidding. I have to re learn how to eat and re think the whole idea of habit too. Having a habit doesn't mean its a bad one it just means that is how you have done things that were passed onto you through the years. You're probably even thinking why do I have a cooking channel if I am trying to lose weight ? Well its because I want a real relationship with food, I want to take all my bad habits and with making healthier choices still be able to do what I love to do and that is cook. I am not a professional so I probably will have mishaps and make mistakes but if one never makes a mistake they never learn or grow. I will always love food but I just need to re think it instead of using it as a friend to celebrate things, or comfort or even entertainment. I am still bound and determined to do this without any medical help but if it comes to that then I will do it. There is not shame in needing medical help when it comes to weight loss because weather or not you do it through diet and exercise or through surgery you still have to change everything about how you eat and how you live. So with all that being said I am more determined more than ever to still be around a little long for my girls. One of my biggest mistakes was intaking too much sodium, even healthy foods have sodium in them. I love pickles, olives, cheese and cottage cheese too. All of those foods have tons of sodium and since I have high blood pressure I have to be so careful about it. Honestly though it wasnt just pickles and cheese that caused me to gain back 20 pounds. I know this time what I have to do and I have to set small goals for myself because otherwise I will burn out. I was burning over 3 thousand calories before and then I got sick of it and stopped. Now I am lucky if I burn 1 thousand calories a day. I am so disappointed with myself, I mean I can sit here and think up of all the excuses in the world, my scale doesn't work, its been a stressful year, blah blah blah. In the end its just me, making the choices good or bad and I need to stop blocking my own progress and I need to stop caring what people think because its not their life its mine. Now if I can follow my own advice to myself I will be happy. Yes this blog is egocentric and all about me because I think its about time something was about me for once. I love my family with my whole heart and I wouldn't want to change that at all but along the way of being a mother then a wife, I lost who I used to be. I used to be very healthy, still a little heavy but I was so active and walked everywhere and I was so happy and feeling good. I was very positive and happy, now I have moments where I am like that. I guess I just want to see me again not this person that is depressed, and thinks and over thinks on things I cannot change. I wont to take control of the one thing I can change and that is to be ME again !!!! Thanks for listening to my ramblings all. Live, laugh and love
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Hi everyone, I hope you are well. So as promised I have a new post for you. The above link is a direct link to my you tube video for this recipe. What do you all think of the videos? do you like them ? is there something I can do different with them? do you like just the blog better? Let me know in the comments and I will take your suggestions and see what I can do with them. I am sorry this post is coming up later than to be expected, I am really enjoying making these videos but I love writing my blogs too. I am so sorry that my blog has taken a backseat I am going to try to be better about this.
This recipe is very simple to do and I put this one up first as my actual recipe because it was so easy because since it was my first time doing a video I didn't want to use a long video and have you tube not accept it because it went over their time limit. In case you dont already know you are allowed 10 minute videos with you tube unless you make partner. When you partner with you tube you can make videos as long as you want to. Ok so instead of all the rambling I will just get to the recipe lol.
about a 1/4 cup of Greek yogurt low fat you can adjust this as much or as little as you want.
1/2 cup to 1 cup of frozen mixed berries
Grab two bowls, one a small cereal bowl and the other one a microwave save bowl. Put your frozen berries in the microwave safe bowl and put in the microwave for about 1-2 minutes. If the berries are still frozen after 1 1/2 minutes, go ahead and let them go for another 30 seconds. While the berries are defrosting in the microwave add your yogurt to the small cereal bowl. Add the berries over the top when they come out of the microwave and stir them up. I hope you all have a great afternoon and live, laugh and love all.
http://www.youtube.com/user/Heatherzblueyez1975 Here is a direct link to my you tube channel.
Monday, May 9, 2011
Hi everyone, so yesterday was Mother's Day, and I have to say my husband and my kids went out of their way to make my day so very special to me. What they dont realize though is that it would have been so very special for me anyway because I have all three of them in my life and I would be lost without them. This picture you are seeing ^^up there is the breakfast my husband and kids made for me yesterday morning. However that was only the tip of the iceberg of my day though. So then we all got ready and we were going to a surprise location, however I wasnt blindfolded or anything and when we turned the corner by Walmart I knew instinctively as any red blooded American woman would know. We were headed to my home away from home, the place where I used to waste all my money until my children were born, none other than Bath and Body Works of course. duhh.
So I am not bragging because I do not shop here anymore and that is fine with me my children come first always and forever. I got to pick out what I wanted and stock up on a couple that I adore. So below is a picture of the loot, the pocket anti bacs are for the kids.
My husband has always known that I love taking car rides to places I have never been before and so we headed to Farmington and surrounding towns and wound up in Rangeley.
Very beautiful town, I loved seeing the mountains in the distance and all the lakes there, too bad it wasnt warmer because I would be sooo tempted to go swimming. The water was so peaceful I wanted to jump in, never mind the fact it was 64 degrees up there. So I will leave you with a few pictures of our car ride and I hope you all had a wonderful Mother's Day or if your not a mother but just a mutha lol I hope you had a great Sunday. Live, laugh and love all.